Lubbock Queers
"I am gay. This means that I am attracted to the same sex. When I do have sexual experiences, I am sickened by the thought of being with someone of the opposite sex. I have tried twice [to have sex with women]. Both times were a disaster. I came before there was any penetration. Felt filthy and unclean. I don't feel that way with a man."
"Other homosexuals in Lubbock--I wish I knew some of quality. That is probably the major sore spot in my relationship with Scott--he has never been interested in having gay male friends and I would love to have some couples I could socialize with. I wish he could understand and be comfortable with male friends--you can be friends with them without having sex with them!"
"I am gay. End of story. Vagina is scary."
"I am a male who dates and has relationships with men. I have kissed girls before, but have no real sexual interest in women. I had one girlfriend in jr. high and one in high school. I only kissed the high school girlfriend one time over a handful of months. We were lame. I have thwanged [a girl friend's] boobies though, if that counts as 'sexual history with the opposite sex.' I am currently having a torrid affair with myself. I would label it half price dates!"
"my sexual orientation is gay. for me, that is attraction to men on all levels of my being."
"I am still working out my idea of “gender” – male, female, beyond anatomical and biological differences – that this makes it even more difficult to define my own sexuality (am I a female that is sexually attracted to what?). So honestly, I can only really say that I am “sexually oriented.” I’ve fooled around with lots of girls, beginning at a young age. As a teenager, I had a lot of bisexual or “experimental” or lesbian friends that I’ve experienced various levels of intimacy with, from kissing to nearly-sex. I guess I am “out” about this behavior; I really only discuss it, like anything, if its relevant or really on my mind. I’ve never been treated differently because of this behavior. I will say, though, that since I’ve lived in Lubbock I haven’t had any serious sexual experiences with girls. I am still only now realizing how dark and deep the “closet” is here, as opposed to a place like where I grew up – Chicago – where post puberty, people are generally much more open to simple experimentation, and are in no hurry to define themselves or anyone else sexually (e.g., lesbian, gay, straight)."
"I'm straight, but curious about the same sex. I would never be able to spend the rest of my life with a woman, I definitely like men, but that doesn't mean I'm not interested in experimenting with women. I'd hate to grow old and regret not having had certain experiences in my youth.I like making out with girls when I'm drunk. Lately I've been interested in doing more than just make out with them, but I'm not going to just try and fuck any girl. I have to be comfortable around them to take it that far."
"Bisexual. That means I find sexual satisfaction in both sexes, and am capable of falling in love with them----though I have had more trouble falling in love with women than men. I find it difficult to find women that are intelligent and/or creatively interesting. I have, but they're rare. Most women aren't my type. With men, I've found many men I've found intellectually stimulating and creatively inspiring, but the sexual attraction seems secondary. Actually, I find pure physical attraction to be secondary, or not important at all. Let me put it another way---if I love a man's mind, I care less about what they look like physically. I don't think this because "I look past the physical and appreciate the person". I think it's because if I don't have something in their personality to latch a hold of, I find little physically to want. Women are the opposite: interesting mind or not, almost all are totally fuckable."
" As of Saturday I told someone that I was bi-curious, but that was only because I wanted the waitress, who just made out with another waitress, to have sex with me. It was damn rotten I tell you."
"I am a proud Bisexual. That I am attracted to both men and women ( and maybe things in between) physically, sexually, and intimately. That I have/had sex with men and women and am interested in both."
"I would identify my sexual orientation as straight. I define my sexuality as such because, despite my mild curiosity and past experimentation, I do not find myself attracted to or sexually interested in my same gender."
"At various times I have identified as gay, lesbian, bisexual, asexual, gender-neutral, two-spirit, and queer. I imagine that if my sexuality had been allowed to develop naturally from desire and had not been forced, I would be a happy, healthy, imaginative pansexual pervert. I’m really so deeply terrified of sex that answering these questions has made me depressed and uncomfortable. I’ve tried to answer them several times, deleted several drafts because I want to tell the truth and not the stories I tell myself in order to make sense of my actions. I guess now I could honestly identify as queer, which means to me simply that I am not a woman who wants a man. That’s a stupid answer."
"I am an out of the closet Domme who chooses to be open with my sexual choices but to not bash others over the head with them if the concept of bdsm makes them uncomfortable. Not only do I feel that it is important for me personally to be out in order to own who I am, but I also think that it is important for my community to come out. BDSM is portrayed in the media sometimes with understanding but often simply to titillate a vanilla community without really fostering any true understanding of what has drawn those of us in it down this path."
"I suppose I would consider myself heterosexual, but I'm open to having a relationship with someone of the same sex. I feel strange calling myself bisexual since I've never technically been with a woman."
"I identify myself as straight. At this point in my life I have no idea what that means to me. I never really sat down and thought I am straight, it just evolved from I like boys so I am straight because of that. There are some girls, in Hollywood and real life, who I find incredibly sexy because of their talent and appearance. I’ve never really let those feelings develop any deeper because I thought myself as only being able to think that way about boys. "
"I would identify myself as straight. What I identify myself as is pretty much standard to what 'straight' people want it to mean. I don't really know what that means to me yet...honestly and truthfully. When I'm around my family, its a whirlwind of emotions. My family is against homosexuality because of our religion, but I have a gay sister. So its fucking complicated. At least for me, I never know how to speak my mind...I just make jokes about it. And when I say things that are FOR gays, my big sister and her husband look at me like I'm wrong and should stop talking. So being straight right now doesn't mean much to me...since I can't allow myself to be openly accepting of homosexuality. It may be as difficult as it is for a gay person to come out of the closet. I may be fucking crazy..."